Sunday, January 30, 2011

another one bites the dust...

OK... so I've dropped another pound this morning... each day seems to be a nice surprise.  Makes all the pain from surgery seem worth it.  Since the surgery I've dropped 8 pounds (whoa!) and I am only 14 pds away from my first goal.  The non eating thing isn't too fun but I know Tuesday I get to look forward to some scrambled eggs and some mashed potatoes!  So looking forward to that.  I'll finally feel satisfied when I eat something... cause yogurt just is not cutting it anymore.  One thing I found though... taking care of 2 little crazy kids when your not eating enough equals no energy whatsoever!  The 6 hour nights some days just isn't enough to get through a day with them. 

Wednesday, January 26, 2011

A week later...

So it's been a week since I was fitted with my very own LapBand and it's been a "fun" week. All liquid diet is brutal... especially when it's your kids birthday and you have to feed your other kid cake.  Since the surgery, I am down another 5 pounds which is great but apparently I'm not getting enough fluids in.  I drink a few ounces and I just can't drink anymore.  Staples were removed today and the pulling feeling on my incisions are a little better.
I just wish that I could carry around my two little ones.  Thats the hardest part I think.  But only a few more weeks of that.  I really haven't had time to stop and think about anything this past week so the whole mental issues of being banded haven't set it yet.  Between being completely out of it for about 3 to 4 days last week, than my cat needing surgery as well to amputate her leg (cancer), it's just been a whirlwind of a week. 
One thing I have to say is will power isn't as bad when you see the pounds coming off.

Wednesday, January 19, 2011

Night after surgery...

So it's done... I am now a owner of a brand new LapBand.  I got to the hospital at 8am and was back in the pre opt rooms by 930.  I wasn't too nervous at all... just alittle worried of the unknown.  About 10 different people cam through my room and all asked basically the same standard questions.  Joe was able to come back before I was wheeled away to be drugged up.  All I can remember is being wheeled away... next thing I know I'm waking up next to a nurse telling me to constantly breathe deeply.  This sounds like a easy task unless you can hardly stay awake and have this stabbing pain in your diaphragm everytime you breathe in.  After this nurse, I was wheeled into recovery where Joe was waiting.  I really can only remember hearing myself snore since I could really only be on my back in this odd somewhat head elevated position.
At this point they needed to wheel me over to Xrays to do a barium testing to make sure the band was in place right.  OK... to have someone who can hardly stay awake and nauseau from being knocked out, this is not an easy task.  They made me stand up take one xray than put me in this god awful chair for about 10 minutes before the PA could get there.  They stood me back up (mind you they had about 100pd girl helping), and than I was forced to drink barium and twist in some painful ways.  After this they left me in the hallway behind some curtains for another hour I believe.  This is where they started to piss me off.
The lady who was assigned to wheel me back had a knack for hitting walls.  Seriously... is it that hard to avoid them in large hallways?!  Than she brings me over to pre opt where the confusion started.  I could hardly talk at this point as I was still in and out of it.  The nurses debated where I needed to go while one noticed I was shacking my head.  Finally they realized where I needed to go... and just as they are about to put me back in the room, another nurse comes by and says, is she ready for pre opt.  I said, NO!
So I get into the room to my previous nurse being on lunch so they stick this other nurse in there that has no clue whats going on.  First she asks me a few things and as she's doing this blows a bubble with her gum and snaps it.  Like I wanted to do to her.  Seriously... chewing gum in front of someone who has eaten a thing and can't?!  Well than she says, well your able to eat or drink... what would you like?  I go to her, well I'm not allowed to eat and I can only have clear liquids.  Her reply, so you want apple juice?  Clearly she had no education in bariatric surgery or she would have known that I cannot have this straight.  Finally they brought back my old nurse which wasn't any better.  Ask if I needed some pain meds... which at the time I wasn't that bad but opted for them.  45 mins later, Joe walks out in the hallway cause at this time I could hardly breathe. 
The gases/air they had to pump me with in my abdomen to expand it was sitting under my diaphragm which caused stabbing pains every time I took a breathe in.  Well apparently the nurse forgot... and than told me it will take another 30 mins for it to kick in.  Thanks for nothing!
Finally the bariatric coordinator nurse came in and spot to me.  After this I was free to go at about 4/430pm. 
We went to Walgreens to pick up my meds and lucky once again, they proceed to tell us the Insurance system is down and my meds are not being ok'd so it will cost $500.  I was ready to rip that guy right out of the window.  So Joe took me home and called insurance.  They than called the pharmancy and told them to ok it.  So he finally got home around 7pm with my meds.  Couldn't take half since they are in pill form and I don't think that will go down right now. 
Right before bed, joe helped get me some watered down apple juice and some liquid pain killer which was worse than doing shots of tequilla.  I luckily was able to find a decent position in bed but have been waking every hour to use the bathroom.  Damn IV bag.  Than at 230am I just couldn't sleep anymore so I'm writing this now with a heating pad on my back since thats supposed to help with the pain in my diaphragm from the gases.
Lets hope day two goes alittle better.

Wednesday, January 5, 2011

Low Carbs for 2 Weeks...

For 2 weeks prior to surgery, I'm supposed to go with 60 carbs or less a day.  This sounds like an easy thing to do unless your me... I love carbs!!!  You really never realize how many carbs are in each little thing you eat.  I found myself with nothing really to eat so off to Walmart I went.  Managed to find some things that were either low carb or no carb.  Pretty much got whole wheat bread, a extremely low carb pita bread, roast beef, cheese, grapes and sugar free Jello.  Tried finding some soups too that weren't bad.  Hopefully this will kick start my lose so that when the surgery happens... it will just melt away.  OK... wishful thinking but hopefully it works.  Now to get these kids to stop eating candy so it's not in the house... now that is wishful thinking. LOL!

I am starting to get nervous of the surgery now... thinking how I will never be able to eat certain things ever again that I enjoy eating.   I know within days of my surgery too, I will already be tempted with Emily's birthday being the weekend after.  Ahhhh birthday cake!  Think I'll get her a chocolate one so I don't care to eat it.